so far so good

Zoe is organizing the fabulous Me-Made-May project, in which you pledge to construct your outfits with your Me-Made garments all through the month, May. I witnessed her own successful Me-Made-March project on her blog, and then was excited to read that she was going to organize the similar project in May as well, asking anybody to join with her. I thought it was very nice idea for every sewist to have such ruled period, a month to try as much as possible staying on the side of own sewn garments, because it would reveal how much one is doing well or not well on building a wardrobe by self-deed. It would become clearer what items would be better in the list for future projects. I know that not all of us are sewing for the purpose of building a wardrobe, but I believe that we all love our own successful results which are lovely and wished to appear on so many occasions. I think we need to research what to sew, once in a long period.

Also, as I had never checked my outfit of a single day as a part of whole month's, I thought that keeping a record a day for making a big picture would give me clues for the better and wiser clothing.



...And now,

is the time for you to laugh at me writing such a great thing about the project and having not joined it.

And it's all my fault.
I solely doubted if it could be possible for me to dress myself in Me-Made garments without any of store-bought garment in May, because I loved my Not-Me-Made cardigan collection so much. They are my shields and second skins. I didn't think I'd survive without them. I could have a choice that I was going to try to wear Me-Made garments as much as possible allowing exception of a piece of store-bought (obviously, one of cardigans), because that was still enough challenging to me. However, I was coward. I was stupid, stubborn, and inflexible. Thus I failed to overcome the fear of failure.
I promised myself to prepare for the next time in full scale, and it was the best that I could do.

So. Nonetheless.
I have been recording my outfit of the day, secretly, since May started.
As I haven't made any pledge, I allow myself to wear whatever this time.

Having a half month with 15 pictures, I've noticed that it's great to check and see how I tend to dress and how much I am doing well with Me-Made garments, even without a pledge. I was believing that I wore my cardigans every day without exception, but I see myself in them only once in three days (ha!). I also realized that I'm doing OK-ish in a whole package, even though I've been always moaning in each morning that I have no right clothes for the day. Hopefully, at the end of May, I will confidently distinguish a group of clothes that are actually useful and lovely on me from others that are sitting in my closet for making wardrobe just look bigger. From the picture, I see I may better wear more of nice colors (ask me what "nice" means three years later because I don't know yet) too. This research can be more beneficial than looking at others dressed in the fashion magazines...

I really regret not having joined the project.
If there were a pledge declared and I could achieve the goal in the end of the month, I'd be feeling so very great as well as getting so much reward from the accomplishment. See? I should be more flexible and work harder on myself. Otherwise, a damn slow progress.

Thus I failed. But I am doing so far so good, in this May.

How are you doing?

love,
yoshimi